Design Competition

Hmm..I applied 2 design competitions, but I had never submitted my design, not even designed actually. What kind of person am I? Do I need someone to push me? I guess because it has nothing to lose. I did homework because my dad paid for tuition fee and if my grades are not good, it will reflect my future career. I did the job at wham-o because I am afraid that they were going to blame me and kicked me out. I really admire those people who entered the competition. Although, they might not win, they have won their mind.